Before I get started, please understand I detest writing these sort of whiny blogs in fact it’s taken a lot for me to publish it. I promise not to make a habit of these sort of blogs.
I feel overwhelmed and I don’t know why. I mean I work 3-4 days a week and the rest of the time I don’t work. I just sit and home and goof off, alone. Everything seems to stress me out and I don’t know why. I thought I was stressed out when I was on Active Duty, but it’s gotten much worse since I separated.
I guess it might have to do with all the idle time I have. I am used to working 9 hours a day and then coming home and goofing around. Not goofing around all day when at work and not at work. I need more structure in my life. I enrolled to start school full time and am heading down next week to pick my classes. At this point I think I am going to take my classes towards a Bachelors in Human Resources since I have all but 5 credits towards an AS in the aforementioned. In the mix of that I plan to take an elective in Photography, something I enjoy and want to learn more about.
I have this odd feeling of emptiness in my life right now. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not unhappy. Not at all, I just feel like any small thing going on that could possibly stress me out is stressing me out. It’s completely subconscious as well because most of it is stuff I should really not care about, for example I went to feed the dog this morning and he was almost out of food, for a moment I started to panic because I just bought him food and then Danielle told me that we bought his a small bag that’s why.
I don’t know what’s going on in my head right now, but it needs to stop because it’s pissing me off.
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Dani says:
Classic case of cabin fever. Its not stress as much as its anxiety. You’ve spent your entire adult life working a full time day job and a part time night job. You’ve never had this much time on your hands. I guess I need to put a little more thought into my honey-do list
And uh…..no MMA……no. After all you’ve been through with that knee….no.
When I took a year off I had the same sort of thing going on. You need to find a PRODUCTIVE hobby you enjoy. Preferably something outside. Maybe get back into some MMA when your leg come’s around.